2024 Reflections
I need a place to organize my thoughts because so much happened for me in 2024. Now, four days into 2025, I am just beginning to process the magnitude of all that unfolded last year. I know I am not alone in feeling this way, so I’m sharing my story in case 2024 was intense for you too. If you’re navigating big changes or challenges, know that you’re not alone.
Where do I even start?
My mother’s rapidly progressing dementia was one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced. In just two years, she declined significantly, and by August 9th, 2024, she passed away. The grief has been overwhelming. Losing someone so close has been unlike anything I could have prepared for. Grief has a way of hitting you unexpectedly—like a song playing in Starbucks that suddenly brings you to tears while you’re grabbing a coffee. These emotions wash over you like a powerful wave, and there’s no controlling when they come.
After my mom passed, I had to get real with myself about many things, especially my career. I’d been a dental assistant for over 20 years, spending the last 14 years at the same office. While I enjoyed helping people, my soul had been calling me to help in a different capacity for the past five years. I’d ignored that call until now. So, I quit my job and took some much-needed time off.
Grief is exhausting—a deep, unrelenting exhaustion. There were days when all I could do was sleep and cry. My ability to handle stress was shattered. The smallest things would send my nervous system into overdrive, leaving me emotionally dysregulated. This was eye-opening because I’ve always had tools like yoga, meditation, and energy work to support me during stressful times. Yet, in my grief, those tools felt out of reach.
The Universe doesn’t hold back when it’s time for me to learn lessons, and 2024 was no exception. I discovered I was peri-menopausal. In 2023, I’d gone to my doctor with symptoms, but at 45, both she and a gynecologist dismissed my concerns, saying I was too young. Their only solutions were birth control or an IUD. Feeling defeated, I sought help from a naturopath in 2024, who confirmed my suspicions through blood tests. Finally, I felt empowered to address my symptoms. Peri-menopause has been no walk in the park. The brain fog, irritability, weight changes, and aching joints have been tough to navigate, especially as someone who’s always taken good care of themselves. Accepting these changes has been challenging and it’s still a work in progress.
Another significant part of 2024 was reconnecting with my roots. In 2023, I did an Ancestry DNA test and discovered I’m Métis. In 2024, I was in contact with family members on my biological mother’s side. This journey of cultural discovery has been profoundly healing. There’s so much I want to share about this experience, and I plan to write more in future posts.
Amid personal transformations, the world feels like it’s in chaos. Trump is president again. There’s war in Gaza, Ukraine, and Africa. Civil unrest continues in Haiti. Climate change intensifies. The list feels endless. It’s taking much personal and collective resilience to find the peace amidst the chaos.
I feel like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon. I have been preparing for this transformation for many lifetimes and 2024 was all about shedding the cocoon. Personal and collective transformations mirror each other. Just as I’m letting go of old patterns, we must collectively shed patriarchal, colonial, and imperialist systems that no longer serve us. These outdated structures are crumbling, and while the process is messy, it’s necessary for growth.
In 2025, I’m manifesting a year where everything comes together. I’ll emerge as a beautiful butterfly, fully stepping into my purpose. I’ll hold the vision of Creator steady and trust in the process. We need each other and community to navigate the times ahead. It’s time to embrace our divine nature, care for one another, and reclaim our humanity.
If you’re also undergoing massive transformations, I’d love to hear about them. Let’s create a space for visionaries, lightworkers, energy healers, crystal lovers, and nature enthusiasts to connect. Together, we can support each other through these challenging times.
